Questions

1. Where is your cell phone? -- purse
2. Where is your significant other? -- hunting
3. Your haircolor? -- reddish brown
4. Your mother? -- has cancer
5. Your father? -- recovering
6. Your favorite thing? -- Colin
7. Your dream last night? -- got lost
8. Your dream/goal? -- comfortable retirement
9. The room you're in? -- Colin/Jeff/Computer room
10. Your hobby? -- reading
11. Your fear? -- rejection
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? -- working
13. Where were you last night? -- home alone again
14. What you're not? -- thin
15. One of your wish-list items? -- lose weight
16. Where you grew up? -- Cool Texas
17. The last thing you did? -- ate lunch
18. What are you wearing? -- sweats
19. Your TV? -- on the cowboys
20. Your pet? -- Buddy/Rio
21. Your computer? -- on..obviously
22. Your mood? -- unsettled
23. Missing someone? -- family
24. Your car? -- paid for!
25. Something you're not wearing? -- rings
26. Favorite store? -- Linens & Things
27. Your summer? -- long
28. Love someone? -- my family
29. Your favorite color? -- green
30. When is the last time you laughed? -- yesterday
31. When is the last time you cried? -- Saturday (a week ago)

Rules:list 6 things I value and 6 things I don't and then pass this award on to 6 people!

6 things I value:

1. My relationship with God
2. Colin
3. My family
4. Honesty
5. Books
6. Integrity

6 things I don't value:
1. Cancer
2. People who "talk the talk" but don't "walk the walk"
3. Coworkers who lie
4. Drunk drivers
5. Leg cramps
6. Beets

I think I have it figured out...

The past few weeks have just been bad...nothing seems to go right. I have never in my life fallen into uncontrollable sobbing like I did this weekend. I couldn't stop....some tears were for serious reasons others were just plain old pity party tears...how crazy is that.

I think I know what is going on and I think I know who's fault it is. You see...there is a certain order to everything. I did not realize I was such a slave to schedule....You see I am out of bed by 4:30am...take a shower, put on my makeup, and dry my hair. This should be completed no later than 5:10am. Feed the dog & cat, pour a cup of coffee, get the paper, and read the paper....Under no circumstances should anyone speak to me until after this time....actually I would prefer that no one even enters the room until the paper has been read. Then I get my lunch together..finish my hair, get dressed and go. I should at least be in my car before the "Sleazy Peak at Hollywood" comes on on KVIL (apprx 6:10). At work certain things are done in a specific order also. On Saturday...I should be at the grocery store between 8:30am & 9:00am..anything later just messes up the whole day.

I assume everyone has a "plan" a "schedule"...I felt like I had messed up some "schedules" this weekend. I felt so bad...sorry everyone...please forgive me.

But I think I know what the problem is...you see the newspaper guy has not been following my schedule the past 2-3 weeks. There are days when the paper does not arrive until after 5:30am....what's up with that....that's just wrong!!!!!!! I am sure that any problems he has couldn't possible be more important than my schedule......The nerve of that man.....So you see it's not my fault that I am an emotional wreck....it's the newspaper delivery guy.

Well..it's good to have finally have figured this out....now I have to go call the Star Telegram and complain....

HERMIT TIME

Did anything good happen this week to anyone?????? I am so glad it is over....will next week be any better though???

Waiting, waiting, waiting for the doctors to get their act together so Mom can have surgery.
The sad news about Shanee. How can such a beautiful young woman be taked from us so suddenly?
The ever present..increasingly stressful job situation.....there's more but I think you get my drift.
Now my weekend plans have fallen through also.

I am going to be a hermit this weekend...I am not a pleasant person to be around lately. Maybe later this weekend I will let you know about my blow up with my coworker....the big "E"...you know the one. He just got on my last nerve today......Maybe he will get me fired too....the big baby!

Hurry up and wait

We have been busy meeting with Mom's doctors. It seems like the more doctors we go to there is always one more we have to see. We all anxious to get this cancer out of there!!!! We met with her Oncologist (Dr. Robyn Young) last Thursday and found out that the cancer on the left side is not "contained" like the one on the right. This means that this cancer does have the ability to spread to other parts of the body therefore when she has surgery they will be removing the sentinal lymph node and doing a biopsy on that. Armed with loads of information Mom had to make the choice of a bilateral mastectomy or the lumpectomy with radiation. We were then referred back to the surgeon for those arrangements.

We met with her surgeon (Dr. Amy Gunter) yesterday. Mom has decided to have the double mastectomy so we discussed the surgery and recovery time. Dr. Gunter will be on vacation the surgery will be at least another week and a half away. As I said we are all anxious to get this horrible thing out of mom's body...the wait is frustrating. But in the mean time....she has to visit another doctor.

We will be meeting with a plastic surgeon in Fort Worth (Dr. Reeves) to discuss the reconstruction procedures sometime in the next week.

I am very happy to say that dad is feeling wonderful after his surgery. He has a "pep in his step" that we haven't seen in a long time. They told Aarilyn that his gall bladder was the worst they have seen and that he must have been in pain from it for a long time. He has not had much back pain since the surgery so maybe that pain he has had for so long was just that darn gall bladder. It is amazing how your body can fool you sometimes!